D'Arcy Pierre Lebleau

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 17:00:24 GMT

*BIG HUGE FUCKING SIGH*

Mmmm... So remember how I haven't updated in over a month?

Yeah... it's been one hell of a month >.>

Shit went down, Aidan and I broke up. My life had no meaning and I freaked.

THEN

THEN!!!

I did the stupidest possible thing ever. If you really love someone never, never EVER force your way or what you want just because you can. Because you can doesn't make it RIGHT D: And then you feel dirty and like shit and just...

So you stop.

And then it drives you even more crazy.

AND THEN YOUR GOD DAMN EX BOYFRIEND SHOWS UP! And you know what he tells you? HE TELLS YOU THAT HE BLOODY WELL LOVED YOU ALL THE TIME AND THAT IT WAS A MISUNDERSTANDING!!! If that doesn't complicate and already complicated situation even more I don't know what would...

So yeah, Seb decided to come out west for a visit, WHICH I FOUND OUT WAS BECAUSE MY SISTER CHARLOTTE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA.... damnit I'm going to have to talk to her and tell her to STOP MEDDLING IN MY LOVE LIFE! So Char thought that to help get me over Aidan it would be smart to send the love sick Seb after me >.>

So then, emotionally fucked up, I had to deal with an ex boyfriend who was trying to get me to go out with him again.

And then saturday night happened. I had too much to drink for my own good and Seb took advantage of that.

And then Sunday we finally worked things out. And Seb said that if I loved Aidan that much he had no right to step in my way, even if he wasn't sure it was good for me. And then he went out for food... and never came back...

And then there was Aidan and I had to go to the hospital...

Needless to say Seb went home on Wednesday... I got a hold of Aidan on thursday and we got together (even if I was paying for the time and had to take him to a hotel.... god the whole situation is fucked up....) So we grabbed drinks from the mini bar in the room and just talked. Well no, make that HE talked. And talked and talked and talked. And I just took it all in.

It was a lot to take.... And I'm still dealing with a shitload of it....

But I'm okay with it. I mean, anyone could have gotten themselves into a situation like that! Okay.... not anyone... but... It wasn't like it came out of nowhere. There are reasons and just...

Needless to say I love Aidan even more than I did before. And I need him all the time... ALL THE TIME.

Mmmn... Sunday he's gonna come visit me at work and then take me out for dinner and then spend the night. I'm more than excited...

I'm never going to want to let him leave.... not to go to that... But I have to be strong for both of us and I can't make this any harder on Aidan that it already is. I just.... I'm glad that he loves me enough to go through all of this for me.

We'll get through this together... I know we will!

Thu, 07 Feb 2008 03:16:11 GMT

So yeah..... I just got in a couple hours ago.... I don't really know what to say... Didn't update while I was gone because I couldn't.... it.... wow...

It's over? At least I can say that?

Too much happened.... and all too quickly.....

Remember how we had dinner with Seb's family?

God I couldn't take it. Celine was being all nice and "It's too bad we didn't get to know each other, you moved away so quick! Seb talks about you all the time, sounds like the two of you have been best friends forever!" on and on and on and omg I wanted to kill her! And then everyone kept asking me what I was doing out in Vancouver and just getting on my case and I cracked. It all ended with Seb's mom saying something like "So now that Seb is all settled, have you found a girl out west? Is that why you've stayed away for so long?"

And then... I did it.

"No, but since you're asking I have an amazing BOYFRIEND who is the best thing that's ever happened to me."

The look on Seb's face... god.... it was amazing. I imagine it had to be something very similar to what mine looked like that day.... Celine saw the look, she saw the exchange between us. I don't know what happened to them but I bet Mattieu had a lot of questions to answer later.

Mom cried.... my dad... he refused to look at me. Char told me I was an ass, how could I let it out in a way like that.

So.... I ran.

I stayed at a friends house for a couple days. Finally Char found me and told me that mum was worried sick. I went home and my mom hugged me to death saying that she loved me and was happy that I was happy and she was sorry that she upset me but that it was such a shock to her that she didn't know how to respond from the start. And my dad just said that I was his son and no matter what I did he'd be proud of me. It... it was rather touching.... though... Seb's family hasn't talked to my parents since. I feel kinda bad... I mean, things'll get better once I've been away again, I'm sure of it. But then it'll never be the same as before....

Heh.... if only the Dion's knew about Mattieu.

God I am so happy to be back. Now all I need is Aidan to snuggle me and make everything all better again. I have a feeling I won't be going back to Montreal any time soon......

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 05:57:58 GMT

So I'm home.... Have been since yesterday.....

So far I've been smothered by my mother.... yesterday I wasn't allowed to leave her SIGHT and it was like "OMG WOMAN STOP BEING SO CLINGY!" I know you haven't seen me for a really long time but HONESTLY! My dad was like "That's my boy!" and went back to reading the newspaper. His reaction was far more exiciting to me. I mean, he actually made me happy I was home. Charlotte.... She loved the shirts I made her and yes, they fit!~ WOO!

Char and I have been talking when we've finally found time to ourselves.... I told her about Aidan and she's happy for me. I've also told her about my concerns about Seb and just everything involved with that.... And I complianed about having to be in the same room as that bitch.

My sister has become the enemy.

"Celine isn't so bad once you get to know her. She's actually really nice and her and Seb make a cute couple."

Honestly! YOU'D THINK SHE WAS ON THEIR SIDE! Traitor...... *pouts*

what the hell is with the name Celine anyway? Does she realize that if her and Mattieu get their happily ever after that her name is going to be Celine Dion? WTF! and she probably giggles and thinks it's cute. IT'S NOT FUCKING CUTE.

Tomorrow.... Tomorrow is the big ol' Lebleau/Dion family dinner..... god.... and I bet we're gonna have to go to mass with them on sunday because it's the first time the familys have been together as a whole in AGES >.< God I hate going to mass.... I love that my family usually only goes at like easter and Christmas.... unlike Mattieu's family.

Can I die yet?

And coming here..... it makes me wonder why I ever left Vancouver.... why I ever left Aidan..... I wish I was there right now...

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 06:23:17 GMT

So..... the closer and closer my trip home comes.... I just sit and DREAD it.

I've made two shirts for Charlotte!~ I hope she'll like them! And hopefully she hasn't gotten fat or anything in the time I've been away because I made it in the measurements I had from like... a year ago... Not that I'm excpeting my little Char to get fat or anything... now I'm just rambling...

But... There are so many bad memories associated with home now. And that's why I came out here, right? TO GET AWAY FROM IT! Now I feel like I'm just going back for the same. And I'm there for a week and a half. There is no possible way that I'm not going to see Mattieu while I'm there D:

I have about a week before leaving. I hope to stock up on fun amazing wonderful times with my Aidan before leaving. Maybe that'll help get me through this trip. And then when I come back I'll have Aidan to make things all better!~

So win/win right? RIGHT?!

Mmmm.... all alone on a saturday night..... I wanna see Aidan but he's been kinda busy with work... I dunno what he's up to... And I don't have his number to call him.... I could go down and see Craven at work... but that would require me to go out in this SHIT weather. I'd rather sit at home and curl up with a blanket and some hot cocoa!~ ~~I wish I had a warm body to curl up with......~~

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 03:42:00 GMT

Aidan came over on friday night!~ And he spent the night once more. We fell asleep cuddling on the couch again and it was just so amazing!!!~ I never ever want to let that booy go.

He had to leave early on Saturday so there was no morning snuggles nor breakfast like last time. But, he stayed the whole night. And that makes me happy. So happy.

I'm starting to feel a lot more secure. And that's good. After the whole ordeal with Seb I just... I had no confidence in myself or anything. And I find with Aidan that I'm starting to get it back. Just... the way he touches me and the way he kisses me...

So I finally gave into my mother. I bought tickets to go home. So I'm flying to Montreal on the 28th and then I'll be flying back Feb. 6. It's a little over a week so I know it'll make her happy. I'm excited about seeing Char... My little sister is so adorable. Speaking of Char, I should probably make her a shirt or two... She'll hate me if I don't. <s>not really but you know what I mean</s>

I.... I wonder if Aidan would wear something I made... like... if he'd appreciate a gift like that.... I'll have to think on it...

I'm so tired... I worked Saturday (so it was good that Aidan left early in a way..) Sunday and today and I finally have a day off tomorrow. I have a feeling I'll be sleeping in for a bit. And then maybe start with planning stuff for my sister or something...

Good times

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 10:12:14 GMT

Aidan came over last night. It was so fucking fun!~

So, we decided to have a movie night right? And what kind of Movie night would it be without popcorn? Soooooo, I don't have microwave popcorn 'cause I don't believe in the stuff. And I HAD an air popper but it decided to die last night. And I remembered when I was little my mum used to make popcorn on the stove with oil....

Needless to say it was a disaster. Kernals and oil flying EVERYWHERE! ~~and being the dumbass that I am, managed to get a nasty oil burn...~~ Aidan took good care of me though, kissing me all better, and in the end we did manage to make a bowl of popcorn. We just destroyed my kitchen in the process. But we had a good time while doing it XD So I guess that's all that counts right? I've never seen Aidan smile and laugh so much ever. It was so cute and made me love him all the more. AND OMG HIS LAUGH! Not his "I'm pretending to laugh" laugh but when he actually full out laughs..... OMG I'VE NEVER HEARD ANYTHING LIKE IT! HE'S A FREAKING DONKEY! I never thought I would ever hear noises like that uttered from his beautiful lips. It was adorable <3

Of course I started a popcorn fight as well that ended up with making out on the couch, we watched 3 or 4ish movies but well... there wasn't much paying attention going on, at least on my part. I was far more enthralled with the blonde sitting beside me. And what his hands were doing. And no, we didn't do anything "exciting" but there was some fooling around :3 I am a happy to say the least.

I never get sick of making out with Aidan. Each time only seems to get better and better and he always finds some new way to excite me. Seriously, he's good enough that he could make a living off of it hahahahaha ~~don't be offended Aidan, I'm not saying your a whore... really I mean it as a compliment. Besides, I don't think whore's are as chaste as you XD~~

We cuddled again and I got to just love the feeling of holding him again. I live for it. And fell asleep like that in the middle of some movie. I woke up around like 4 or 5 and Aidan was still there, in my arms. I couldn't believe it. Aidan hadn't left!

So being me, I freaked out and ran out of the flat down to one of the 24hr stores and bought some random shit for breakfast. What? I haven't been food shopping in a while.... Anyway, by the time I got back home Aidan was still there, sleeping on my couch. Though he had taken it over! I tried to cuddle with him and he was all annoyed with my cold hands and wouldn't wake up and just arg. That guy is a solid sleeper, let me tell you.

So, I went and slept in my own bed. And Aidan woke me up this morning!~ If someone trys to cuddle with me I actually wake up and enjoy it, not grumble half asleep, roll over and keep sleeping. Anyway after some decent early morning snuggles we tried to use my poor popcorn disaster kitchen to make some breakfast. Aidan left by 10... said he had to start work at noon or something. -sigh-

I think I'm one of the happiest people on earth.

Needless to say, I spent the afternoon rescuing my kitchen because it was grossing Aidan out (and me for that matter) and I want him to come back sooooooooooon, so I'm trying to be better and not let my apartment get so cluttered (like it has the habit of doing.....)

I also spent HOURS on the phone with my mother who is STILL sobbing about me not going home for Christmas and bugging me to come home and see her. Honestly! Get over it woman. It doesn't help much that I haven't even tried to book any time off to go home. But I better end up doing it soon because my mother will drive me CRAZY before too long. But I have two reasons for not wanting to go home:
1) Seb. I know that there is no way I can make it through a trip back home without seeing him at least once. Him and that damn bitch. It would make me happy to know that I never have to see them again EVER in my entire life. I just don't want to deal with it. I can't deal with it. Not right now. And you'd THINK it would be easy, you know having Aidan now and all... but I don't want to have to think of the past to deal with it. I just want to enjoy what I have now...
2) Aidan. I don't want to go home for a week because there will be no chance of Aidan coming into work to see me because I don't be at work, I'll be in Montreal. And Aidan can't stop by some night to just chill because, like I said, I'll be in Montreal. I just... don't want to go a week without seeing Aidan D:

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 03:04:37 GMT

Okay. I'm going to attempt this once more.

Life is PURE BILSS!

I honestly cannot think of anything better in my life. I just... I just... OMG.

Words cannot explain. Which is why I've held off writing because I could never find anything to write.

A few nights ago Aidan came over and we fell asleep on the couch together. True he did leave around 4am but he woke me up and said goodbye and everything. Nothing felt better than the warmth of having him in my arms. Just thinking about it makes me want to hold him again.....

We went out for lunch the day after that.

And he's come over once more since then.

I'm so happy. I can't think of anything that would make me happier ~~exept maybe Aidan staying the whole night so I could make him breakfast the next morning~~.

We're taking things slow and that makes me happy. We haven't done anything past making out... but I'm alright with that. Not saying that I don't want more. Obviously I do. But this way we can build are relationship and it doesn't have to be just physical. And it's nice to know that he doesn't just want and easy fuck to just up and leave. I love that he cares about me. ACTUALLY CARES.

Aidan makes me so happy. He's the one thing in my life that seems to be going right. I love it. I love him...

DATE NUMBER TWO!

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 05:44:09 GMT

OH MY GOD!

So I had my second date with Aidan tonight... OH MY GOD!

So... after well just... yeah... It was awkward.

He showed up and it was like... just... random talk. Not much talk at all. He suggested a place to order from and then it was just like... yeah...

Then the delivery guy buzzed up and on my way to get the food I kinda tripped... like into Aidan.. and there was a crotch involved. His to be exact....

At least the awkwardness went away after that?

So we ate (and the food was AMAZING but would I expect anything less from something Aidan suggested?) and then Aidan broke out his Champagne that he's been raving about.

OH MY GOD IT WAS AMAZING!

The bottle was totally gone. And then my couch got more love.

It was different this time. Aidan dressed down, he wasn't all fancy smancy like he usually is. Just in jeans and a tee... ~~probably payed un-godly ammounts for them though knowing him...~~ and suddenly... I just felt more on his leve. Like the guy I was kissing wasn't some god that I had no chance with. That he was just an 18 year old guy like me. Mmmmmmmm AIDAN!~ <333

SO FUCKING GOOD!

I hope date number three isn't too far off...

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 01:36:54 GMT

Waking up with a pizza box on your head... it's an experiance I've never had before......

I was so hung over and late for work.... And then Aidan showed up.

Wow...

AWKWARD!

I think we've both just agreed to pretend last night never happened.

Tomorrow he's coming over. It should be good... I hope everything goes well!~ I just.... get so nervous when he's around. It freaks me out!... IN A GOOD WAY!

I just... I adore him so much. I want to make a good impression. But he's always just sooo... PERFECT and it kills me because I feel like I don't compare and just... one day he'll wake up and he'll realize how totally below him I am and be gone.

THE DATE

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 05:53:34 GMT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

I am such a fucking MORON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG could to night have been any worse (but at the same time I don't think it could have gotten much better either!~) So the Moron part.
1) I was late. Only like... a minute or two. I was FREAKING OUT about my outfit and lost track of time and it was like OHSHI- and running away and stuff. But I got there!
2) I talked like a moron... and this was before I even drank. I just kinda babbled like an idiot... I do that when I'm nervous.
3) I SPILT MY DRINK! ON ME! MY CROTCH TO BE EXACT! SO then I looked like a fucking moron.

But.... it kinda broke the ice? Aidan and Craven BOTH laughed their asses off. And Aidan opened up a bit more.

Anyway because my drink went to my crotch instead of being drunk, Craven gave us some on the house and Aidan took me to the bathroom to help me clean up ~~I just about died when his hand was like ON MY CROTCH! Seriously I was like OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~ so after trying to towel it off and stuff, I untucked my shirt ~~effectivly making me look like a slob~~ and just tried to cover it up. Besides, Bars are dark and it's not like people could REALLY see it....... Even if Aidan couldn't see it, he still knew my crotch was sopping wet! *dies*

We had a couple drinks and TRIED to talk but it was SO DAMN LOUD ~~and I was uncofortable with my wet pants~~ that we decided to walk back to my apartment since it was nearby ~~OMG YES YES YES!~ Aidan came to my apartment!~~~

When we got back to my place I went to change my pants ~~and to my display~~ Aidain stayed in the living room. My mum sent out some wine so I poured us a glass and then we just sat on the couch talking. Leanred a little bit more about Aidan which was nice. I wanted to know more about him and just... yeah. It was nice. I liked how it was just a nice quiet evening getting to know a little bit more about eachother. More than you'd get just from talking at the store.

And then I kissed him. I BLAME IT ON THE WINE! ~~not that I'm sorry in the slightest~~ It started out as just a friendly little kiss.... but... you know... it's impossible to just leave it at a simple kiss like that. especially when his lips felt that fucking amazing and just... *melt* so one kiss turned into two, three, four..... 50 billion.

Yes. We made out. On my fucking couch! OMG.

It was amazing. Damn, the things his tongue could do.... fuck it was amazing!~ I just.... Aidan was just.... so damn good!~ Mmmn. And then my hands got a little friendly, one of them finding it's way up his shirt... he just... wow...

but almost as soon as things started to heat up he very politely pulled away and left.

I'm torn. Because yeah, I mean things really shouldn't move that fast ~~don't want to look easy now do we? XD~~ but... did I do something wrong?

Did I royally fuck this up?

Did I do something to scare him off?

Maybe I should have left it at drinks and not invited him back.... but... I thought he was up for it too.

GOD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do.... Do I ask him out again? Do I let him make the next move? I mean.... I've honestly shown my interest now haven't I? Isn't it HIS turn to like... show that the interest is mutual? what if he never comes back to the store... I have absolutly no contact information to find him...

but if he stopped coming he probably wouldn't want to be found, by me especially....

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 05:19:14 GMT

TOMORROW! IT IS FUCKING TOMORROW!

I don't think I'll live to see it.... I'm going out of my head here just thinking about it.... What if he doesn't like me D:

The weekend is coming!~

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 05:28:52 GMT

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm day off today. I got to admit, I was a lazy ass.... But it was only because if I slept most of the day away then it would be closer to my DATE! ZOMG DATE!

So yeah.... I didn't drag my ass out of bed until like.... 2? maybe 3-ish? I didn't have anything to do though so it was like... yeah. Then I did nothing.... ~~isn't my life so eventful?~~

So yeah, around 5 or so I went over to Reid and Maggies for dinner again. ~~I promise I will stop mooching off them soon... or will start paying for food.~~ But yeah, it was fun because Maggie got all super excited about my date with me and was just being so damn cute! "Well, I want to meet this Aidan and make sure he's good enough for you! So you have to bring him over for dinner sometime!" Awwww.... Maggie thinks I need her approval to date. So of course I told her that I would. ~~I just have to now find someway to convince Aidan to go to their house for dinner... for some reason I don't think he'd be into that....~~

I can't belive that it's almost christmas.... Maggie and Reid are leaving on Saturday for Maggie's parents place and wont be back until the 28th. ~~so of course I am eating with them again tomorrow night for one last meal before they leave XD~~ I've got to admit... I'm probably going to miss them a lot. But I am okay because I know that Craven is gonna hang with me on Tuesday so it's all good. I find it sad that I really haven't made a lot of friends since moving here... I mean... I've been here six months and all I really have is Reid and Maggie and Craven. Look at me be mr. sociable. Ah well, now I have my honey!~ <3

I wonder if Aidan'll come in tomorrow while I'm at work.... mmmm that would make me happy!~ *nudgenudgehinthint* ~~that is if you read this before tomorrow...~~

DO YOU KNOW WHAT TOMORROW IS??????

FRIDAY!

AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT COMES AFTER FRIDAY????

SATURDAY!!!!

AND DO YOU KNOW WHAT SATURDAY IS?????

MY DATE WITH AIDAN!

OMG I am so fucking excited. I can't believe it's almost here!~ *_________________________*

Updates on work and stuff

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 05:59:15 GMT

Man.... work is slow and shitty.... especially when there is no Reid or Aidan.

I hate working with stuffy old men. Especially because they look at me with that "What's wrong with youth these days..." And I mean, I've never actually come out and said "HAY HAY GUYS! I'M TOTALLY GAY!" to my co-workers (except maybe to Reid and not like that) but it's kinda hard not to notice. I wouldn't exactly say I'm flamingly gay but it's not like I'm going to hide who I am just to make people like me. And I know that I get treated like shit by some of the old dudes because of it. Just the looks they give me and things. And how I'm never allowed to be left alone with customers. Cause I'm gonna molest all the dudes that come in shopping? Um yeah, no thanks.

IT PISSES THE FUCKING HELL OUT OF ME! D:

But that was yesterday. I was too pissed to write about it. Today was better so yeah!~ I can post and be happy and just stuff. Reid was there for most of the day with me and he's cool. And then my ~~honney~~ favorite customer came in for a few minutes ~~and somehow in those fifteen minutes found a way to drop almost a thousand dollars... though with tastes like his it doesn't take much~~

Flirting with Aidan made me all kinds of happy. And I'm just so damn excited for the weekend!!! Is it friday yet? Because I'm GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note, Christmas may not be as lonley and horribly depressing as I thought. Craven says he'll have Pizza and beer with me that night. Sounds like a plan to me :3

Tue, 18 Dec 2007 05:16:22 GMT

Mmmmmmmmmmmm... I'd marry Maggie based on her cooking alone! Sometimes I feel like I'm Reid and Maggie's son. Reid is always looking out for me and Maggie makes sure I'm eating right and taking care of myself. Did I really just only meet Reid a few months ago through work? Sometimes he feels like he's been my friend for YEARS!

So yeah, had an amazing dinner with them. Two nights in a row that I've eaten with them ^^;; I should stop mooching off of them. But Reid keeps asking me over... I know that he only does it because Maggie makes him. She thinks I don't eat enough or something... something about vegetables... I dunno. I feel like I should start paying them for food or something.

Didn't get much done today. I spent too long trying to find the PERFECT outfit for the weekend. But.... I THINK I FINALLY FOUND IT! I just hope I still like it as much on Saturday when I actually have to wear it! ~~I hope Aidan likes it too...~~

So, work again tomorrow.... ~~one can only hope that Aidan will show up so that I can actually enjoy the day!~~ Oh well, I need the money after how much I've been spending lately... -sigh-

Part of me thinks things might be better if I lived with someone else. You know, like a roommate? When I was back in Montreal I was sharing all the expenses with Seb and it never seemed as expensive... Wow... I haven't thought about Sebastian in a while... But that's for the best right? ~~Hmmm I wonder if Aidan is looking for a roommate XD Yeah right, with the money he spends he probably owns his own condo or house or something! Must be nice to be rich...~~

I found cheap Friends boxsets... I wanted to buy them soooooooooooo badly... but I held off ~~for now~~ because cash is a little tight at the moment. Shipping all those gifts back home really sucked. Mum's still sobbing that I'm not coming home for Christmas. It's just that.... We spend the holidays with Sebasitans family. And she will be there. No thanks, I'd rather not. I'll go visit my family in January or something. That'll make her happy! And I miss my sister too... Charlotte is the best! I'll have to make some clothes to dress her up in when I go home.

It's gonna be a lonely Christmas I think... I don't want to step in on Reid and Maggies holiday either... though I don't think that's an option anyway. Last I heard they were going off to Maggie's parents house....

So much to do!~

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 17:36:11 GMT

Day off!~ Yeah baby! Mmmm I'm do down with this. ~~especially since I didn't sleep at all last night...~~

Part of me is wondering if like... this is real. Suddnely I'm all like "Did he seriously agree to go out with me?"

Saturday... on man I am sooooooooooooo excited. I'm gonna go crazy.

So list of things to do today:

-go shopping
-stop by a fabric store
-get more pattern paper
-try to calm myself just a LITTLE
-Dinner at Reid and Maggies.

I've been in contact with some people in the fashion routes... I might be able to get some pieces of a collection into a fashion show in the spring. It's nothing big, just a local event. But a local event in a city like this is a bigger deal than some. There actually is people from the industry that will be there.

I'm not expecting much to come from it, I mean I really haven't done much latley but at least it's something right? And the only way that I'm going to get my stuff out there is to do litlte things like this and work my way up. So yeah, I've got to come up with a collection of designs and maybe construct a few garments to be reviewed so I can get a spot in the show. This is a bigger show than some so they are really picky about the designers that get to be in it. They want only good designs and high quality construction. I HOPE I CAN DO THIS!!!

About going over to Maggie and Reid's I can't wait! Maggie is a wonderful cook and is sooo cute. Reid is pretty lucky. She's reall,y nice and just.... has such a kind heart.

I'm sure I'm going to get a lecture from Reid tonight. He really isn't crazy about this idea of me going out with Aidan. It's not that he doesn't like Aidan... it's more he doesn't know about him. And he tells me that he has a feeling that there's more the Aidan than either of us know.

And he's also angry with me for giving him that shirt. Reid thinks it's wrong that Aidan is only going out with me beause I gave him an expensive gift. But... I know there is more to it than that. I just... I know that Aidan wanted to go out with me too... he just had his reasons for saying no. And I really did want him to have the shirt.... It looked so good on him. And I mean, he's done so much for me, his comissions have helped me out so much! Why can't I do something nice for him back? And... he really seemed to like the shirt so that made me happy.

The shirt isn't the only reason he's going out with me. I just KNOW it's not.

I DID IT!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 04:27:46 GMT

Aidan came in today. That was sweet. Days when Aidan comes into work are the best. He is the reason I love my job.

I got him to try on a bunch of the new stuff we got in, and as I had predicted, it looked fucking amazing. ~~I could have toally jumped him right then and there in the store.~~ And then... I was evil.

I mean, it was going to have to come this eventually because I don't think I could live without going out on at least one date with him. So I got him where it counts the most.

Yeah, those super uber expensive Italian shirts we got in? I told him he could have it if he agreed to just go out for drinks with me. Okay, yeah.... I mean, how do you pass up something like that? ~~especially when you're a guy like Aidan!~~ So in the end I wore him down and I WON!

OMFG I AM GOING FOR DRINKS WITH AIDAN ON THE WEEKEND! *dead*

So yeah, I'm like.. Beside myself with excitment. How exactly am I supposed to wait for Saturday? I'm going to go fucking mad waiting for it. But... I know in the end it will be worth it.

AIDAN! ME! DATE! OMG!

Reid thinks I'm mad, giving away something so expensive. Like, not that I let him walk out without paying or whatever. I paid for the shirt myself. Reid doesn't like it, he thinks I'm jumping into things too fast after.... well after things that happened in the past. But I mean... That happened AGES ago! Or at least it feels like it. I mean, I've been here for almost 6 months... and I was at home for at least a month or two before then. And hoestly... I haven't thought about any of that since I've met Aidan... He's like the only think I can think about latley.

DATE! Honestly this is the only thing I'm going to be able to think about until it happens...

Sun, 16 Dec 2007 09:20:22 GMT

AH- HA HA HA HA!

I am so fucking good! Who got at least SOME sort of contact info for Aidan? OH YEAH! THAT'S ME! TAKE THAT BITCHES! So yeah, Aidan will be on my flist. FUCK YEAH!

So yeah... went over to Reid's after work and Maggie made the MOST AMAZING LAZONGYA EVER (if that is even how you spell the damn word... whatever, ENGLISH IS MY SECOND LANGUAGE STFU!) Reid is freaking awesome though... I'm glad that I work with him. If it was just the stuffy old management guys then like.... ew. So not fun working. But Reid's been an awesome friend, even if he is a few years older and stuff.. He was cool even after he learned about the whole reason for me moving out here with Seb and all... He's just a cool guy.

I wish I knew why Aidan wouldn't give me his phone number or something. I mean it's not like he doesn't have his cell on him all the time. I think it might be a work phone or something though... he always seems to get irritable when it goes off whie he's in the store...

Mmmm we got new stock in at the end of the day. God, one of the shirts we got in would look SO DAMN HOT ON HIM! I can't wait for Aiden to come in again so that I can ~~flirt with him~~ show it to him.